“This is a bit ____ of a photo project, but its the most truth of the images of the last few years 2020-2023. I will keep it going, but I’d like it to end. That would mean I stopped putting myself in places. That may not be the best idea. I take images with love I guess. Behind my lens is love and honor and respect. I’ve tried to ditch that, but I have to be real about the act of the photograph, I can’t be untruthful.”
- Diary Entry 2023
The Places I’ve Been Putting Myself
When I am feeling.
When I am.
When I am not.
3,6,9,13,16
Anxious
Betrayed
Confused
Suicidal
Selfish
Tempted
Too young
Encourage to piss my pants
and stand on a podium
Trying to be a good girl
in a corner somewhere
Taken away
Told off
Reading the letters from my mother
18
Wide eyed
Weak kneed
Abused and
Worn out
Survived
Asking and
Accepted at last
Grateful
Giggly
Capable
Pushed to the wall for xanax
Pretending
Throwing my fist into a mans face
22
Slipping into prayer and
Waging my soul
Grabbed by the back of my neck
Paraded around the room
Patronized
Drunk driving
High on the clock
Listening and not reacting
The ride back home
Lonely
Vomiting
Bringing a pregnant friend back to her mother
Restricting a friend who wanted to show me my potential
25
In the way
Behind the women I admire
Distracted by unrequited love
Dissociated
Left
On the subway
make it to work on time
Licked like a popsicle
Overwhelmed
Closed up again
Realizing I had put myself back there
Relearning how to piss
Validated
Running away
Hugged in the club
Laying down my arms
Participating in choices, homes, and lives